Lyrics Spam of the day
Comme si à chaque seconde
Je succombais à tort
Comme si rien d'autre au monde
Me paraissait si fort
As if every second
I succumbed to wrong
As if nothing else in the world
Seemed so strong

Yo.

After so long, and finally after much pushing and prodding by some of my friends, I have finally decided to get off my butt and begin posting. (Peer pressure is scary)

Hmn… As to why I never blogged. I mean like, all of us have read about how people went through traumatic experiences with their blogs due to cyber bullying, and that has like… kinda put me off writing in a blog. So call me san gui (mountain tortoise) if you want, but I have never blogged. (Unless you count my account on fictionpress as blogging.)

Another point is that, posting a blog means that I’m responsible for whatever I write, and mayhap, I’m not ready for that responsibility. >< So I put it off, told my friends, another time and then conveniently forgot about blogging for a year, until they began “abusing me again”.

We drew lots, and then they voted, and in the end, I was made to promise to start a blog.

I keep my promises.

Call it too much of the Kushiel’s series, but after reading the whole thing, I have instilled in myself a sense of integrity. (Finally after so long.) The only thing I can do right now, is to tell myself, promises are meant to be kept. So I have no choice but to watch what I promise to. So when I promise I’ll get something done, no matter how I procrastinate, I have no choice but to see it done. And that also means that it’ll take very long before I promise to do something.

Never promise what you can’t keep.

To those that knew me when I was younger, I think I have matured. A bit, if anything else. It hasn’t exactly been very easy these past few months and my emotional balance was constantly on a roller-coaster ride. But I suppose, I’ve grown a bit stronger past these few years, enough to forget the scars made on me a few years back. No, never forget them, but at least, show them with pride.

No one ever knew, and I suppose no one ever suspected until I told them. I have been a victim of bullying. Ostracism. It hurt. It really did. To be turned away by what you once knew as friends, the pain is unbearable. Perhaps those’s why, right now, even if I hate that person, or dislike him/her, I try to include them in anyway possible.

The boys in my old primary school, you have no idea how much I treasure your friendships. When I was kicked out of the “female” peer circle, and had no one to turn to, you didn’t care about my gender, and allowed me to join you guys. For this, I’ll always remember. Thank you so much.

Right now, I’m trying my best to repay a kindness shown to me when I was younger.

To those who showed me kindness, I hope you're proud of me.
~A.R.

Perpetua, Needs to BREATHE J-rock and Visual Kei and Punk, Has her heart dedicated to Miyavi, Gackt, Cinema Bizarre, Uruha, Bill Kaulitz, lives life amplified based in Singapore, Can camp in Japan, Can't live without her friends and family, Needs to sleep with her beloved hello kitty and Pierrot who's her other half, Likes Black and being chinese (proud of it, damn you racists.) Supports Neo Visualism, Dreams about Dreamer(she calls him that), Hearts roleplaying, Wants to explore the world and turn back time, Belongs to Midnight Mirage

[FAV MUSIC]
Oh god,if she named all of them, it'll be longer than her blog. So.. Here are the bands/musicians that she can't ever think of deleting from her playlist.
1. 30 Seconds To Mars
2. Angelo
3. Cinema Bizarre
4. Dué le quartz
5. Evanescence
6. Gackt
7. (The)GazettE
8. Girugämesh
9. Manterou Opera
10. Nightwish
11. Pierrot
12. Tokio Hotel
13. Within Temptation
14. 雅-miyavi-

She won't bite. At least, not very often.

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