Lyrics Spam of the day
Comme si à chaque seconde
Je succombais à tort
Comme si rien d'autre au monde
Me paraissait si fort
As if every second
I succumbed to wrong
As if nothing else in the world
Seemed so strong

I can’t breathe.

It hurts, it hurts so much when I think of them, when I think of how they sound like, when I think of how they smell like, when I think of how they look like, god, I miss them so much. I miss them to the point it feels like my heart will break. I miss the lack of discrimination; I miss the pure sure assurance that they loved me, something I can hardly find now.

I’m tired of trying to deal with failed friendship in which I’m the only one putting any fucking effort at all. I’m so tired. I want them back. Maybe if I close my eyes my fantasies would all come true.

I hate them for not being with me anymore, I hate them for causing me so much pain, I hate them for not being there for me when I needed them the most. I hate them for causing me to be all contradictions, feeling like I would burst from loving them one moment and hating them the next. I miss them so much.

I don’t care if they hate me, I don’t care if they truly detest me for being so fucking greedy for something I can never get enough of, I don’t care if I’m being selfish because I want to be the selfish one for once.

I don’t want to give anymore. I don’t want to always be the fucking submissive in a relationship. I don’t want to be the only one giving and starving my heart out and then pushed around like a fucking tool. I don’t want to always be the one crying. I don’t want to love them anymore.

I want to give up on this miserable existence once and for all. Climb over me won’t you? That’s what everyone does anyway. Push me around, use me like I’m some fucking whore and then ditch me when you’re done with it.

I'm tired of trying to predict your moods, I'm tired of trying to guess what you're feeling. I'm tired of being the one you scream at when you have a lousy day. I'm tired of always being there but never truly there. I'm tired of these cat and mouse games. I’m tired of being tired.

Sometimes I wonder what will happen if I slip up and give in. Sometimes I wonder if anyone will fucking care anymore.

Perpetua, Needs to BREATHE J-rock and Visual Kei and Punk, Has her heart dedicated to Miyavi, Gackt, Cinema Bizarre, Uruha, Bill Kaulitz, lives life amplified based in Singapore, Can camp in Japan, Can't live without her friends and family, Needs to sleep with her beloved hello kitty and Pierrot who's her other half, Likes Black and being chinese (proud of it, damn you racists.) Supports Neo Visualism, Dreams about Dreamer(she calls him that), Hearts roleplaying, Wants to explore the world and turn back time, Belongs to Midnight Mirage

[FAV MUSIC]
Oh god,if she named all of them, it'll be longer than her blog. So.. Here are the bands/musicians that she can't ever think of deleting from her playlist.
1. 30 Seconds To Mars
2. Angelo
3. Cinema Bizarre
4. Dué le quartz
5. Evanescence
6. Gackt
7. (The)GazettE
8. Girugämesh
9. Manterou Opera
10. Nightwish
11. Pierrot
12. Tokio Hotel
13. Within Temptation
14. 雅-miyavi-

She won't bite. At least, not very often.

Amplify It
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